What the hell is wrong with all these people?

House

You can't be angry with God without believing in Him too.

Planes

There was a plane crash in South Carolina this morning. Before today, I looked at plane crash history, and I read that all the most recent plane crashes happened in other countries, that is of course until today. I don't really like planes at all, and I don't really know how flying to other states by myself is going to work out. I'm also not sure to whom I will worry about this.

Procrastination

It's just better for me to get things done. Or I just don't have anything better to do, because no one calls me back, typical.


Also, I appreciate that my computer has spell check on the internet, that's good for me.

Much Changed

I still would like someone to talk to.

And I would still like people to get out, experience something. I would like that very much. I feel slightly responsible for the lack of knowledge of my peers. It makes me angry though, because they don't want anymore.

Also, I am checking out. I'm completely okay with that too, because the truth is that I'm not checking out at all, I'm figuring this out, this life that I've been taught. I'm making it my own, and I don't understand why that's so wrong?

So here's what I've learned: I'll never be the one who knows what's going on.

Or actually, I feel like I can't even properly word a sentence. I know that I want someone who is passionate about change--social change maybe? Perhaps the same thing I'm passionate about. I need them to be their own person. I need them to be okay without me but still be so happy about us. I need them not to be desperate. I can't deal. I just can't. I need them to be able to focus on their purpose, their passion. I need them to know they have a passion and purpose. Maybe not put it first, but a very close second, or a tie.

So much pressure makes me nervous. Unable to handle life. I just can't function. As good as I thought things were, I'm sure now that it isn't the right thing.

At Work

I hate wasting time. Though sometimes it's my chosen activity, it is not when I'm anywhere buit my house.

CommunityNashville, and the world for that matter, has taught me a great deal lately. I have learned that majoirty of my peers and friends at home (though I'm only 15 miles away) are so confined and they don't even know it. I mean, most of my friends have never spent any lenght of time outside of Hermitage or Mt.Juliet, two small suburban communties. And even within those places, they don't really associate with kids that don't attend our baptist church.

As I somewhat listen in on the conversation occuring 4 yards from me, I wonder if a world without bias, bigotry, and racism is possible. I'm not sure I think it is.

I'm also not sure that I think the Bible is all it's said to be...

I'm also pretty sure I support gay rights.

This is what I've learned. It hasn't been a complete waste.